me

hehe... this is the forth post i created today! wow... so vigorous...

i received a letter inviting me to attend a seletion test for a scholarships 2day but i decided to give up this chance! a golden chance...

"oh u shouldn't give up this oppoturnity! u suppose to be proud of your achievements! go to the interview! i will go 100% sure!" tht''s wht my sis told me via the phone enouraging me to go for it...

nevertheless, i choose to discard this chance! weird n strange!!

my parents dont give much opinions on this. they just let me to decide by myself. hehee.. no nagging this time... a miracle! i appreciate tht...

until now i am not sure why did i let go of this chance... if i get this scholarships, i would have had a chance to study abroad without using any of my parents' penny! how stupid i m!! maybe i think that i m not qualified for that... quite blur...

i m not very sure of what i want or wish for sometimes... just cant figure it out! y???