Today is the first day of second semester.
Very reluctant to know that only 4 days off for chinese new year. After cny holidays, straight away on Monday the day going back school, there would be a minitest! Oh gosh!
What about my happy cny time? I need time, plenty of time... to GAMBLING! woo-woo..
$$$$ money money mari sini!
Very fast the holidays end again.
Just finished 2 weeks holidays. Tomorrow will be picking up back the long-lost bag...
A semester starts!
12-12-2007 is great!
Had been waiting for days to finally "get" my sister into the labour room! After bearing the painful feeling for 12 hours, a baby girl came to this wonderful world and began her journey here!
YES! ThERE"S A NEW MEMBER IN MY FAMILY>
Anyway, she still does not have a name till now... My sis and bro-in-law still could not decide which name to give this angel!
Wish that she would grow up happily. May health be with her eternally!
Best wishes from your aunt here...
Turtle pao.. I like it.. yumyumm
turtle pao with tortoise key chain. They are brothers!! Anyway the poor turtle pao had been send to my stomach and then was excreted out.. heiheii.. 
Guess what's that? Think of dragon fruit...
How do you think about this?
These 2 bananas are conjoined twins. My friend said it is very normal to have this condition in bananas. But why does this happen?
That day when I was sitting for my oral health test, one of the questions asked
What are the ingredients of toothpaste?
Oh o.. I didnt know the answers..
After google-ing a while in the net, I found lots of answers...
Fluoride(of course) -- stannous fluoride, later sodium monofluorophosphate, then sodium fluoride.--remineralising activity.
Hydrated silica-abrasive
sodium lauryl sulfate, or ammonium laurly sulphate (surfactant)- aids fluoride activity, help clean the teeth, and provide a foam that helps to carry away debris, lauryl sulfates have significant anti-bacterial properties, and they can penetrate and dissolve plaque.
Sodium bicarbonate--for mouth taste
Sodium carbonate peroxide--whitening
Triclosan--antibacterial
ANd lots more...
Info taken from http://sci-toys.com/ingredients/toothpaste.html
Have been holidays for a few days...
Today, I want to blog about my dentures. The first denture I made in my life. A strictly hand-made product. ^-^
I am now in my second year. In fact, according to tradition, students would start learning how to make a set of dentures in third year, the clinical year. However, for some reasons, we are taught on this in second year.
Making dentures is not a pleasant work to be done. For the dentures I made, approximately 3 months have been used to finish it off. For a procedure that seems easy to be done, I might use one or 2 weeks to eventually get a pass from the technician who teach us. When he finally pass me, I might be exhilarated for few days. But in case he does not pass the work we have done, then we need to start all over again until he gives a BIG TICK on the evaluation paper...
And now finally it's done! You won't know how happy I am to look at the thing which "contains my blood and sweats".
But then, I haven't even had time to really touch and look at my denture, I was forced to pass it up for doctor's evaluation. Don't know when would it comes back to me...
I had only taken a few pictures on the denture...
p.s you won't know how difficult it is to set up all the teeth...
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Recently, I am watching a hong kong drama : the ultimate crime fighter. I stopped at the episode 27 or 28 (if I am not mistaken), being very reluctant to continue watching it.
On episode 28, the female leading role in the drama died! Oh, my gosh! I don't like to watch something sad like this. She is ordinary, cute, kind-hearted... Anyway, she is not supposed to die. I guess. Somehow, she died too! I dont agree with this.
That's why I stop there and dont want to go on with that drama. Why should I continue something which I dont like/?
The cock crows, heralding a brand new day again...
Early in this morning, I dont even feel refreshed! I have been missing my sweet slumberland the whole night. Just kept the 2 eyes open widely, carefully not allowing them to close... It was my own fault for not studying properly weeks before exam. the exam gonna be held on the coming monday. Not yet cover everything, that's why no time for sleep now.
Fair and square.
Transform into a tired panda, yearning and begging for sleep...
That day the doctor asked me a question. That question surprised me. Even me myself never thought of this before.
DO YOU REALLY WANT TO BECOME A DENTIST?
She asked me about this.
YES.
I answered, I lied.
I didnt expect her to ask this. At that moment, something inside me urged me to say NO. Anyway, I lied to her.
From the very beginning, I didnt want to be a dentist. I never expected me myself to be a dentist. I only knew I need to be a dentist when I knew that I need to further study in UKM dentistry! Silly huh?
After getting know that I didnt get the medical course which I yearned for for years, I was disappointed, utterly broken down. I didnt even have the guts to make appeal for course transferring. there would be no miracle. I was scared that I would be disappointed, once again. So, I didnt do anything to make things change. People said I didnt do what I should do to chase back my dream. Thus, I have no rights to complain. I chose not to appeal, means I chose dentistry.
Doctor, I dont want to be a dentist. Even until now in my second year. I am chosen to study this course. I didnt choose this. Yea, I knew you wont beg me to stay. Instead, you would probably tell me to leave if I gave u a NO that day. If possible, I want to leave too. Can you please tell the gov people to approve my apply for course transffering? Doctor, please dont tell me to go for private or overseas. If my parents could afford me pursuing my dream abroad in the first place, I wont come to ukm too. So, without money, I could just stay here in this course, everyday pretending that I love this job very much, pretending that I dream to be a great dentist one day!
Since I came study here, I admitted I had never done my best in everything. Everything have been done in a sambil lewa way, not the best efforts I could give. I didnt know why I behave like this. I just dont have the passion in doing everything. I kept giving myself reasons...
In this second year, I started making dentures and do fillings. Sometimes when a restoration is done, I would be very glad, perhaps I could be happy for one whole day just because of that. But that doesn’t mean I like doing these things. I just think that I am a builder, building back what people lost. That’s it. Its dentistry. I still think that treating a patient with medical problems is far more interesting than looking out into people’s mouth… Honestly, I hope I am not here. Time pass by accompanied by lots of difficulties and sadness. I am always sad when other people can do a restoration in such a perfect way… but why cant I? I am sad because I don’t have a pair of creative hands which can help me finish works faster. Why?? I am chosen and destined to be here, but why am I not destined to own a pair of good hands? I keep on blaming, blaming myself, blaming others, blaming Him.
I would say I will be a dentist rather than I want to be a dentist. I never want to be a dentist. Anyway, I have promised myself for the next few years, just do my best until I graduate from this dental school. After that, I can do whatever I want. Even if I don’t have 100% passion in studying right now, I think I can still bear with those deadly feelings until I graduate from this dental school. No matter what, I need to graduate. That’s my goal. Don’t need to be excellent, don’t need to be perfect. I just want to pass and graduate...
I am sorry I admit recently I didnt drop any lines here. Just dont find any passion in writing anything here though there's lotsa I want to tell... I have been searching for other blog site provider but still cant get one which can really satisfied me. I believe shortly after this I would "shift" my blog... Blogspot is not really good for me... ;-)
ITs Mooncake Festival again. I almost forgot tomorrow is Mooncake Festival...
Still remember last time when my grandparents were still here, still existed in this wonderful world, we had a small mooncake festival party held in my grandparents' house. At that time, my dear grandma would prepare a lot of nice and delicious food. Mooncakes (of course), peanuts, agar-agar, pomelo, fruits and etc etc..I couldnt really remember what food she actually prepared. Anyway, I know there were many many food! There is a big compound surrounding my grandma's house. We the young one would lit up candles all around the house and play lanterns. We would even hang the lanterns on the rambutan trees grown in the house compound! You would be amazed by the candle light all around the house compound if u were there! But now everything remains in heart only, I dont have any lantern party night anymore. The house is not occupied by any living humans anymore. The trees are in the verge of dying, no more green leaves and healthy trunks. What left are just trunks of trees waiting for their time to come... Brown Yellow leaves are spreading all around on the floor... What left are just memories, precious memories, Buried deep in my heart...
Anyway, happy mooncake festival everyone! Have a nice and happy mooncake festival!
Steamboat' on mooncake festival with coursemates!
persplex plate--handskill exercise, getting used to the handpieces. 
Guess what are they?
Even shoes need to be covered up... visit to cssd hkl...
ME--sudah gila--in the fitting room...
What is the meaning of "betray"?
Based on the oxford dictionary, the verb "betray" means "to hurt sb who trusts you, esp by not being loyal or faithful to them". If this impies, then I am betrayed, we are betrayed!
I am angry when this happened! It couldnt happen. It shouldnt happen. From the beginning, I still put 100% trust in them. I trusted that they would not betray us. I trusted them for whoever they are. To my dismay, I found out that one of them betrayed us, letting us into hot water... I am angry! We didnt force them to join us. They beg us to let them in and this is what we get in the end! And we were stabbed from the back now!
I am wondering what is his or her feeling now... Happy? Clapping hands? Celebrations going on? I dont know And I dont want to know... I dont care. I just want to know who did this to us? I just know that we are hurt by them, badly and mercilessly.
I am not sure whether or not I could one day forgive them for their act. For now, it is still hurting...
For once, I anticipated the day they arrived.
I hope to have a good relationship with them all.
I want to treat them nicely. Maybe go to K together, eat together, shopping together, doing crazy things together...
I want to help them out for whatever problems they face...
But now, I am utterly disappointed and sad...
Believe it or not I went for shopping frequently recently. Sometimes even twice a week!
Oh gosh! I just cant stop myself from doing this! I have spent quite a large amount of $$$ to buy things, this and that.
Frankly, I am guilty for my irrationale act. But I just cant stop spending money!!
God! Help ME!!
There's another minitest tomorrow. By now, I should have finished studying and doing final revision for the incoming test. However, I am not into the mood of reading right now. Its a wrong timing I guess to have the test tomorrow!! (blame the lecturer!)
No matter how hard I try to pour everything into my brain, it just gets sticky, not viscous enough to flow into my brain! SO, what to do??
Life now is hectic. Everyday class till 4pm. Until I could finally manage to lie on my bed back to my room, it would probably be around 5 or 6 pm... after bathing and doing all sorts of daily chores, it would be near 8pm. And without any hesitation, I need to force myself into studying, doing revision... Its really a tired life. Its just my second year in this faculty! How long should I bear with this life??
Life is also stressful by the way! In simulation clinic, I need to rush rush rush so as to complete the tasks given on time. If not, I would be lagged behind, slower than my friends! when you come to this situation, you would be so stressful that you cant even paying full concentration on what you are doing! I would be scared that other would be too fast that I cant even catch back back to the correct rail!
In prosthodontics lab on the other hand, everything is not systematics. The supervisor would only show once on the steps in making dentures. Sometimes I even dont have time to digest and swallow everything the supervisor taught! Its all depend on individual. If you can learn fast then you would catch what the supervisor is teaching. If not, sorry lo.. Pay more effort then..
Aiyooo.. I am complaining again! I shouldnt complained! just go go go... No use to complain so much now. THere would no turning back. Just look forward. Though we coulnt forsee what would be waiting ahead, but we know Destination is there!!! GOooo... ONE DAY, WE WOULD REACH OUR DESTINATION!! GGOooooOooo.....
"Good morning, senior."
"Good evening, senior."
Try not greet me if U dare. U would die in a very "ngeri" way! Dont try me, ok?
Its orientation time. Its fun time for Seniors; terrible time for juniors.
My poor little juniors must at least live in this state of uneasiness for the next couple of weeks if they said yes to the orientation, no turning back after all.
Why join orientation if it is so horrible, tiring and unhappy? Dont think about this question, I also cant get myself a satisfied answer until today, one year passed my own orientation. Anyway, I am sure that I would miss something if I really pulled myself out from my orientation...
Seniors do not take sadistic pleasure in taunting juniors. They are not happy too if they see juniors suffering because of orientation. They wont be glad if they see u cry...
Its a tradition to have a orienation in this course. Without undergoing this, u wont be a complete dental student. This orientation completes u, makes u a true dental student, fueling u to do as excellently as possible in the coming 5 years as a dental student!
Just take this as a challenge! Goodluck!
>>>my 2 cents...
Do you know how much time we used to finish this banner? 3 hours!! It all started from a piece of white cloth...
call me if u want to paint anything. I perhaps can give u a discounted price for that... :P
Life's wonderful!
She is now 1 and a half years old. She is able to splutter some words out from her cute little mouth. Her voice is young! Of course, SHE is my cute little niece, little Mandy.
She could walk now. But she seems to have unlimited energy as she would not have a time to stop around, it would be hard to see her sitting quietly. Even when she is sick she would not have stopped too! I don't know where does she get the energy from, I should have asked her to tell me as I am tired easily...
She is talkative though most of the time I don't understand her baby language. I believe that in the future when she's older, she would be a very talkative girl. She likes to cry, like to play, like to smile, like to eat.. Like to do everything a baby does!
At first, she was able only to recognize my sister and called her "mommy". Later, her vocabulary increases from time to time. Until recently, she eventually "discovered" that I am her aunt and she would "probably" call me "yi-yi" when she is in good mood! Its great to be called "yi-yi" by this cute little baby. I think it is quite hard for her to pronounce the sound "yi-yi" because whenever she calls me her procerus muscles contract and wrinkles form at the place between the 2 big eyes!
Hope this little angel would grow up healthily and happily and become the pretty and kind-hearted angel everybody loves!
I started my life as a second year dental student on 2 July 2007. I naively thought that my 2nd year in UKM would be better than the dreadful first year. The timetable would be as packed as in 1st year. Ironically, everything went wrong!
The schedule is packed, almost like the timetable in 1st year. The workload is heavy. More to be studied and covered compared to students from previous batch. Its very unexpected. From the beginning of this year, I need to sit for an extra subject in my professional exam. I would start doing dentures in this year, too! Oh gosh.. Is that my fate?
It would be more challenging in the coming days. You would probably see me running from here and there in campus for the next couple of months. From the lecture hall, tutorial rooms, mpd, Prostodontic lab, simulation clinic, library... If you want to search for me in campus, please try this place. You might reach me then. =P
2nd year! I am coming!
Its really late now.. I am supposed to be in my slumberland by this time. However, today I dont feel like sleeping...
Today 2007/2008 ipta reaults is out!
I dont know how to describe my feeling right now.
This leads me back to the time I got to know what course which Uni I obtained.
Still remember, at that time I was really disappointed as I didnt get Medicine. Of course, there would be lots of people out there right now crying because they dont get their ideal choice or even dont get any offer from local Uni. Many people said I was unlucky at the time I didnt get medicine. Frankly, I also thought that I was categorized into the "Unlucky" group... Anyway, I still registered myself in Ukm on 1st of July 2006 as a new batch dental student there. I did not know why though I was there in UKM, my soul wasnt there with my body. I felt reluctant to be there completely. I was unable to persuade the stubborn to do as best as I could during the past 1 year there. All the time I was given myself reasons not to study. I was on the edge of giving up my study just because I was not given my 1st choice! I had the stupid feeling that even if I do my best and get results I also wont be able to achieve what I yearn for! No matter what I do, Other people who have better luck than me would get what I dont get! My tests and exams results were extremely bad! I even failed in the test for the 1st time in life! Anyway, my mindset changed slowly, bit by bit, day by day and here come me! I am not supposed to say that I am unlucky! In fact, I am really lucky! I am lucky enough to get a professional course like this! I am lucky enough to come study in KL, dont need to go far! I am lucky enough to be able to pass in my final exam though my ill preparation and poor performance! I was crying during the exam period every day because I really didnt know how to answer the exam questions.It was a hard time! I realized that I might not pass. people especially my parents would be very disappointed! I dare not let them disappointed for the second time! I was regret by that time. I was regret that I had used a very stupid method to take revenge on myself on not getting medicine! I was very stupid!! Its time to wake up. I could not allow myself to be like that anymore. I must change my behavior in study!!
2 weeks later, I would step into my second year in dentistry. Life's here is not as rosy as people thought of most the time. I would do my best in years ahead!!
Hope those who enrol in Uni would have a great year ahead! Enjoy the wonderful Uni life! =)
Its just pass 12 am and its 9th June 2007 now.
8th june is my birthdate.
I was given birth 20 years ago. And now I have lived in this cute cute world for 20 years... What a long 20 years. There's not much 20 years in our lives... Then what have I done during all these years?
I was trying to save the world from ruining.
I was trying to be a good daughter for my parents.
I was trying to be a good student with good grades.
I was trying to be a good friends.
I was trying to earn as much money as possible.
I was trying to fight against the devil.
I was trying...
I was trying but I failed to bring what I had tried into reality.
I didnt save the world. Our world is sinking. People grow evil and ugly. One day, our world would be diminish because people kill to survive to satisfy themselves. We would be killing each other...
I was not a good daughter. I didnt help doing the household chores. I didnt listen to everything my parents told. I made them angry...
I was not a good student. I broke the school rule. I seldom show my respect to teachers. I didnt finish my homework. I didnt get good grades in exam...
I was not a good friend either. I hurt my friends. I make my friends angry...
I didnt earn money at all because I didnt work before too...
I didnt beat against the devil deep inside me too. I would rather them to stay at their place...
Am I a failure me myself?
Today is mother's day again..
I dont have any celebration with my mom today. I dont even greet my mom :"HAppy mother's day." Today is not special at all for my mom. So, I am not a good girl then??
I knew that many people would buy presents for their moms during mother's day.
But why should we buy things for mom during mother's day?
Why cant u buy things for her on the other day other than mother's day?
Does that mean that u dont buy things for your mom except mother's day?
So, buying things for mom on mother's day means that U love your mom very much?
IF I dont have anything for mom, so I dont love my mom?
If we dont have mother's day, we dont need to buy things for mom anymore?
Giving mom present on mother's day means what??
Means u love your mother very much?
If so, does this mean that u only love your mom on mother's day?
If so, does that mean that I need to buy things for my mom everyday to show that I love her every day??
I love my mom, just like u all too. I dont have anything for my mom does not mean that I dont love her. I love her very much. I appreciate everything she gives and devotes. So, next time when u know that I dont buy things for my mom, dont misjudge that I dont love my mom. And so, next time when u wanna buy things for ur moms, dont purposely tell me that u want to buy your mother a mother's day gift. I know u love your mom, and so do I...
I believe: every single person in this world loves his/her mother...
Happy Mother's Day for All The MOTHERS in this world!
Just now when I browse through the net I got to a site about dentistry. The description about dentistry is quite accurate. I like the part where it describes the life of a dental student. The route in which pathed by rough stone but not red roses for a dental student to become a dentist...
I know my route to become a dentist is still far and is rocky... No matter what, I would try my best to be against all odds and move on to the very end... Now, I am facing a crisis. If I dont overcome this obstacles in front me, I might need to repeat my 1st year in dental school again... I want to be in till the end!
Hey, see, I am coming. Dont bully me! I would move on!!!!
Refer:
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 You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet. A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job. Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss. Your strength: Your undying determination Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle Your power color: Plum Your power symbol: Dollar sign Your power month: August |
After all, FINALLY, the dreadful final professional exam period comes to an end...
Then I am supposed to be very happy now. My feelings must soar to the sky to show that I am in a sense of happiness! However, I have done really badly in my exam.
I know how bad I did in the 4 papers I was sitting for. And now I am preparing to be called for the resit test and am given another, the last, chance to do it better. No doubt, I would need to resit for the test.
Anyway, its time for a short rest now before facing the bad results I would get in the coming few days. What that I hope now is that I dont need to resit for all the papers... ...
Before I studied in UKM, I have never thought that I would meet another best friend in my life. One of my teachers had told me before that once you leave secondary school you wont be able to get any best and true friends anymore. I am happy that I got one in my university days...
She is my roommate. Frankly speaking, our relationships from the beginning was not really good. However, time always have the power to change things, turn things upside down. I have been experienced everything with her companionship, from happy to sad. She is a good listener as I feel secured to share with her all my thoughts. I am not worried that she would tell others my secrets. Though she doesnt know how to say words that could console me when I am sad, its already warm enough as she would stay besides me whenever I am not happy.
I appreciate this friendship very much and I coulnt afford to lose her and this friendship. Thanks for being my soulmate...
During last CNY, I brought her back to my hometown. 
This is her. She is always naughty in front of the camera. Fun to be with her...
Last week I had an evaluation on English Public speaking course. The speech I was evaluated was Informative speech. The topic of my speech is PHOBIA...
I myself also have phobia. I am fear of speaking in the public... haha... but then my topic is phobia!
I was very nervous at that time. My body was trembling and my voice was shaking... at one point, I felt like esaping myself from the room I was in. Anyway, I was able to cope with those deadly feelings at last and I managed to finish off my speech then.
Thank God.
Time is passing very fast, without any warnings, in a very swift pace.
tomorrow I need to go back Kl study again. Gonna leave home again and face the world outside. If I am given a chance I would like to stay at home, protecting myself from the evil and reality outside... Home would always be the safest place on earth!!
Once you leave home, u would miss ur days in ur house, ur parents, ur family members, everything including ur pet(s) of course!
I like to stay in my house because I don't need to think and interpret what my parents and family tell me.. They mean what they meant. But then outside there, its a utterly different scenario. there are times when people didn't mean what they told. Maybe there is other meaning hiding behind what they really mean. I dont like this.
Staying at home I could do what I want. I can fart whenever I want. I can talk loudly whenever I like to. I can lock myself in the room and turn on the cd player to its highest volume. I can chat online till midnight. I can watch as many dramas as I want. I can do what I love to do at home...
Though parents might scold us for what we are doing but then they dont really be angry with ur act. they would just be angry for a while. After that, u can still put ur hand on his or her shoulders again. No doubt. However, if u arent home and u just do what u want without taking others into consideration, ur friends definitely could not bear with you and they might be angry with you, talking and gossiping about u at the back. Outside there, we need to be normal, as normal as evryone, so that those normal people would accept you as a friend and would not talk something bad behind u. If not, you would be called WEIRD! oh. that's life anyway...
How nice if I can stay at my safe cocoon for a longer time!
About one and a half month I did not go back home...
and its good to be home again. to be with family members again..
