What is in my mind when I dont wanna sleep?
Its really late now.. I am supposed to be in my slumberland by this time. However, today I dont feel like sleeping...
Today 2007/2008 ipta reaults is out!
I dont know how to describe my feeling right now.
This leads me back to the time I got to know what course which Uni I obtained.
Still remember, at that time I was really disappointed as I didnt get Medicine. Of course, there would be lots of people out there right now crying because they dont get their ideal choice or even dont get any offer from local Uni. Many people said I was unlucky at the time I didnt get medicine. Frankly, I also thought that I was categorized into the "Unlucky" group... Anyway, I still registered myself in Ukm on 1st of July 2006 as a new batch dental student there. I did not know why though I was there in UKM, my soul wasnt there with my body. I felt reluctant to be there completely. I was unable to persuade the stubborn to do as best as I could during the past 1 year there. All the time I was given myself reasons not to study. I was on the edge of giving up my study just because I was not given my 1st choice! I had the stupid feeling that even if I do my best and get results I also wont be able to achieve what I yearn for! No matter what I do, Other people who have better luck than me would get what I dont get! My tests and exams results were extremely bad! I even failed in the test for the 1st time in life! Anyway, my mindset changed slowly, bit by bit, day by day and here come me! I am not supposed to say that I am unlucky! In fact, I am really lucky! I am lucky enough to get a professional course like this! I am lucky enough to come study in KL, dont need to go far! I am lucky enough to be able to pass in my final exam though my ill preparation and poor performance! I was crying during the exam period every day because I really didnt know how to answer the exam questions.It was a hard time! I realized that I might not pass. people especially my parents would be very disappointed! I dare not let them disappointed for the second time! I was regret by that time. I was regret that I had used a very stupid method to take revenge on myself on not getting medicine! I was very stupid!! Its time to wake up. I could not allow myself to be like that anymore. I must change my behavior in study!!
2 weeks later, I would step into my second year in dentistry. Life's here is not as rosy as people thought of most the time. I would do my best in years ahead!!
Hope those who enrol in Uni would have a great year ahead! Enjoy the wonderful Uni life! =)
