matrics

I went to open a new account in Bank Simpanan Nasional n paid RM 470 yuran pendaftaran for the enrolment into matrics....
haiiii.......{sigh}.. gotta study in the matrics though I dont want to go there... but i 've got no choice right now... there's no hope already 4 me 2 get a sholarships now because of my P MORAL... N there'll be no hope 4 me 2 study abroad as my family cant support that.I m not from a well-do-to family... so, local public uni will be my destination, i think...
I've thouhgt of doing STPM but....
My final decision is matrics...
i dont wanna waste 2 years doing STPM and end up getting nothing!sometimes even though u get outstanding results in STPM u cant get your first choice too! So, I rather opt for this-- a safer and faster route...
N now i have a whole new plan...
i would do my degree here. After that, I would do my master overseas... this is what i think of right now, as to console myself i think...