doNT want to be miserable anymore, so LOVE it...Try...

All this while people like to ask me : why didnt i apply for course changing?? If I try maybe I would get what I want and I wont be regretted...

Yes. I did think before to appeal so that I could further my study in what I interested in most, in my very first choice -- medicine. Yes, until now I am still very interested in tht field compared to dentistry. YEs, until now, 2 months I have become a UKM dental student... Yes, everything is undeniable. I still love medicine. cant cheat anyone, cant cheat myself...

Then, Why didnt I appeal last time?? haha... Honestly, I also dont know why. PErhaps I am very scared that I would be disappointed once more; Perhaps I am scared of failure; Perhaps I dont like medicine as much as I thought of; Perhaps I am not brave at all; PErhaps I am not confident enough; Perhaps... everything that U could think of might be my reason why I didnt appeal..

And now I am still a dental student... I shouldnt be vague of my future anymore. my future is being a dentist and there's no turning back...

Tests and quizzes have been carried out during last 9 study weeks in UKM and my results were not good at all. In fact, they were lousy and worst!! I am very scared tht this is caused by my lack-of-interest in dentistry. I dont know. At times I have this evil feeling in me: this is dentistry, not my first choice.. for wht I study so hard??? I tried very hard to erase this thought from my mind but it seems to appear every time I want to put my heart into study. I dont want to be dental student with bad results, though it is hard for me to excel.. I just wish tht I could be average, not very bad would do... i have never thought tht my Uni life would be like this, scared tht I would be the worst among my coursemates... never in my life before this had happened.

IF u want to perform well in sth, u must love it first.. So, the resolution now is?? try to love dentistry, try to love everything it related... then, my life would be better perhaps...

~HOPE SO~