my dental life

Time is passing in a very fast pace... unnoticeable, I have been in UKM for about 4 months and thus the 1st semester of my sophomore year.

After this 2 weeks holidays onwards, life restart again with a brand new 2nd semester. At that time, lots that must be faced alone then. the 1st and most critical issue would be my end-of-1st-sem results. I coulnd't say that my results would be bad; instead it would be the worst!! I think I almost failed all the subjects... haiz.. a senior said before if we fail, in case, in our first sem test, we need to pay extra works in 2nd sem so as to pass our final professional exam. If not, u would need to say bye-bye to ur coursemates and stay in your 1st year... Oh, gosh...

For the past 4 months, I just feel that I am like an EXAM MACHINE... tests and quizzes seem attacking us continuously without even giving us a chance to take a deep breath. There is no time for us to enjoy our life fully. Even when we go out for a walk or something, our mind won't be totally relax. In stead, most of us would feel guilty of going out to play. Why are we like this? How come my life like this?

I am talking about a UKM dentistry student's life. everyday, our timetable would be as hectic as possible. Its seldom for us to have classes till 12pm only. After a 8-to-4 classes in the faculty, many of us dont even give themselves a rest. Straight after the class, they take a bath and start studying and doing revision. Everyday our life are like this... not much fun. for me, its, in fact, is dull.

I found that i just study for the sake of the tests. I dont study on the "I_WANT_TO_LEARN_MORE" basis... all the times, i just regurgitated what we had read during exam without a thorough understanding about what we learn. There are no time for us to digest what we had ingested earlier… I think that this is meaningless...perhaps because of this, I found it hard for me to continue study. evrytime before the exams i must used lots of time to persuade myself to head for studying. perhaps because of this, i have lost my passion and interest in studying. study is no more fun for me... thus, my results are not that good too... everytime i just cin-cai-cin-cai study and cin-cai-cin-cai do the papers...

I am still finding my way to overcome this frustrated condition of me. i really hope that i could enjoy in my study. If not, it will be really hard for me to go on with this course...

That day, one of my coursemates asked "If u fail and need to repeat ur 1st year, what would u do?" some people say that they wont repeat. On the other hand, they would opt for other course. Frankly speaking, before I came here to study, i have never thought that I would be facing with this condition. however, for nowbeings, this might happen to me. If i really need to repeat my 1st year, yea, i might oso pull myself out from this course. Dentistry is really not as easy as ones might think of. that day after being my senior's patient and let her do a check up and scaling on my teeth, i found that in fact its harder than I can imagine of. I dont know how to describe my feelings when my senior presented my dental condition to the doctor. I was just wondering, do i have the ability to do this job?could i handle all this?...